Minnee ♥: Thankful.

Disclaimer first ahh, don't say i never warn you horr. This post is about my thoughts and what I feel, so if you don't give a damn please go away la horr byebye~

Finally unfollowed him on twitter, it's about time to let go I guess. It's too cruel of him to tweet about how much better his previous ex was, and I'm getting annoyed reading those tweets. I honestly felt bad when he tweeted stuff about how he is neglecting his health by overworking his body, but I guess I shouldn't care anymore. Yes I'm flawed, but nobody's perfect, and this time I admit I'm not 'nobody'.

I just feel like I have the need to dedicate a post to all my wonderful friends, both past and present, who have made me who I am today. My life so far had it's fair share of ups and downs, had conflicts with my family, been in and out of love, struggled to discover the meaning of life and so on, but there was this group of close friends who never gave up on me.

I don't think I'm all that mature yet, I still make mistakes, I can be insensitive at times and I annoy the shit out of people. I make wrong decisions only to regret them afterwards. And I guess there are haters out there constantly judging me. Being a rather emotional person, there were times when I broke down and felt like giving up on everything. At times like those, I would have friends supporting me and backing me, when no one else would. What would my life be without them?

There was once when somebody told me that we're all just passers-by in each other's lives and that we should treasure the time we have together as we cross paths. I never believed in that at that point of time, like what do you mean by passer-by? We're friends right? But after experiencing numerous short-lived and broken friendships, I finally understood what it meant. Sometimes people in our lives are like the sand in an hour glass, waiting to pass through to become a part of our past, and all we can do is to dwell in those memories every time we look back. And sometimes when we lose something, we just never realise how important it was, and when we do we can never find it back ever again.

Of course, those who left me had been wonderful friends at some point of time. We shared memories and secrets, and we lifted some of the loneliness for each other in this lonely world. People do drift apart, and it's nobody's fault. Feeling's fade too, and nobody should take the blame, because sometimes things just turn out the way we are. I choose to believe that fate has a part to play; we will never know where fate would bring us one day.

So I'm gonna treasure all those around me now, because I don't wanna have anymore regrets. Life is way too short for regrets. I want to smile for the people who love me, and not change myself to make people love me. So what if I'm crazy, straightforward and full of nonsense at times? I can be quiet and thoughtful too. I'm gonna be me, and if you don't like it I guess that's too bad.

"Count your age by friends, not years.

Count your life by smiles, not tears."
-John Lennon