Best day of the week :)

Had a crazy day today with my pri sch clique, SIX DOLLARS!!! Haha plus my bro, so $6.50 le LOL. Spent a great day eating buffet at the alumni gathering, taking part in the lucky draw (our table damn lucky haha 4 of us got ntuc vouchers!), going SCAPE, playing games, zilian-ing everywhere, eating fries, shopping and omg cant list everything, but today was holy moly awesomeeeeeee :D it's great that we still keep in touch~ today is definitely a day to rmb(:

Haha we srsly zilian everywhere, raining must zilian under umbrella, on the bus must zilian from orchard back to jurong (Y) xDDDDDDD

And played card games oso, wah i suck at cheat sia >< i either think super long when i wanna cheat or i just totally say the number on the card when im supposed to be cheating GOSH HAHA xD joke max sia.. Den wink murder i oso damn fail, can't wink LOLOLOL haha so fun siol~

But it's time to get back to reality... So... Time to sleep cuz thr's sch tmr :/

Today was crazily awesomez! The most epic things happen when u get somebody hu doesn't look like u to help u get ur ezlink card haha.. And me n yan had the shock of our lives when the mrt announced pioneer station when we were at lakeside, den dk why only the both of us reaction so big haha, so omg!

The little things in life that gives me reason to hold on and persevere(:

Ran outside the sch for PE ytd, mega fun sia! So cool when ppl stare at a bunch of ppl running tgt and crossing traffic junctions~ Cher let us play at the playground after hiong running and sprinting, omg we all found our inner-child agn HAHA. Lot's of epic moments, rly had a lot of fun! :D
Finding more and more bruises after hiphop now, me ish practising hard! Looking forward to March oh yeah :D

Omg not sleeping agn, gt this cockroach in my room!!! Wth like my room so much -.- Kinda funny, me, my mum and my grandmother all armed with a roll of newspaper waiting for it to come out and we whack at everything haha. Shucks, now it disappeared... Gonna sleep with door open and lights on, hopefully the insect repellent thing works. Damn i hate cockroaches..

Tireddd :/

Feeling tired alr when i had a 4 hour nap just now, why so liddat! :( but i feel like a good girl haha, finally tidied my messy bag and did all my hw :D this just shows that I can do it if I wanna set my mind on it~ tmr's challenge: clear my table.

haha me and my tablemates are so lame, we bet on the weather all the time LOL. Like whether it will start raining, and whether it will stop if it's alr raining. We are a bunch of bored ppl haha..

11:11, i just wanna listen to music and drift to sleep(:

Just woke up from my nap! A break from this crazy week haha omg tmr gonna be hiong le~ shall chiong hw now, fighting! ~

Been slacking since i reached home from cca, oh my gawd slackermin96 haha. Dunno how to deal with my bro, guess i've been too harsh on him till he's so rebellious and disrespectful. I think i'm a failure.

Dk why, feel like cutting my hair short haha. If it weren't for dance, maybe i'll cut it till shoulder-length~ maybe i'll feel less weight weighing my head down haha..

Omg am i abnormal for a girl?? Normal girls have crushes all the time right, no?? Haiyo.
Just upgraded my freeze today haha, can hold in the position without supporting my knee with elbow le whoopee! :D
Yes, me and my bro are in the same sch, but how the hell will i noe exactly what he did in sch and whr he went?! Aiyo can think properly anot? U ask me i ask hu? :/
Mentally drained today, hope maths will be ok tmr! ><

Dancing so much has guided me in finding a balance in life. Haha but i better not over do it or i'll have split personality soon!! It's like one moment i'm "IN YOUR FACE" at hiphop, then the next moment i'm "graceful and demure" at ballet. Haha. Still, it's a good thing to be exposed to many dance styles^^ dancing is really my life, can't imagine life without passion~

Wore the wrong shoe when i got out today and ended up with a blister on each heel right before ballet! Went on pointe with blisters, not cool at all.. Ballerinas can't show that they're in pain, it's basic performance quality.. So... Screaming and ouch-ing inside, but smiling and looking relaxed outside. Haha..

2 more weeks to Taiwan! And i know i'll nvr start packing till the day before i fly. Whoops xD

My darling has a new friend today! ^^ thx for the belated present! :D

Another week gone~ time passes by so quickly nowadays! One thing that i enjoy is going tuition after cca wif my bro in our "cpl" tee haha. Even though we still quarrel, we kinda bonded a lot since this yr, cuz same sch mah(:

Haiz but when will he ever grow up la, so immature! Zzz.

Sometimes we just don't appreciate what we have until we don't have them anymore. Why are human beings like this? And it all boils down to making the right choice and decisions, like econs(: we have to measure the costs and benefits of every decision we make. Haha, hope I'll be ok for the test tmr^^ woots, just reached home!

Ended tuition late today! Tired, hungry and loads of hw undone :/ so cui now sia! Tmr cca another hiong day, haiyo!

So many things to do, so little time! ><

Today was awesome haha, except when i fell asleep during chem oops >< just found out it can be super fun sitting with a bunch of guys haha! Like finding jokes online during phy and sharing them, wah laugh dao siao~ ofc the zai me said we were discussing phy and came up wif a profound qn haha, den cher explained a whole chunk of stuff~ rly enjoying myself more in class now^^

Haiyo today nvr get to take a nap! Sho tired aw man.

Went to facilitate 1A for their CHAMPS period today, wahh totally nervous dao siao! Heng gt zhixing help, but still.. we were two clueless ppl hu had no idea what was going on but had to help out cuz the facil in-charge was absent. Heng it was kinda ok, except for debrief part when i was trying to chiong finish quickly cuz time overshot liao. Ahhh nervous nervous, kept stuttering like an idiot >< but main point was they had fun(: and i missed lessons(: heehee(:

Had some takeaways la ofc^^ thr's always a reason for a person's actions, so we must try to understand them before diving into a conflict. Only through this can thr be social harmony and peace(:

Gotta try chiong finish hw today sia, thurs and fri damn hiong so no time>< haiyo why so liddat derh.

Happygirl96 (:

Today was kinda.. Idk how to describe haha... Mixed feelings la. First time receive so many gifts, so it's a special Vday indeed. I nvr expected that haha, me ish a happy girl today(: and it's the first year im spending Vday wif my bro in sch haha, really different! Thanks everyone for everything, yall have made my day today :D
Anw im really shagged and cui now, was falling asleep during cca oops x) and i had tuition afterwards somemore, so now my eyes are like struggling to stay open heh. Kay shall sleep now, hope to have a good dream! Nights world! ^^

Omg so late alr.. Finally done with V.day stuff, but i din touch my PI at all omgg shall wake up a lil earlier to chiong heheh.
Siao, so long nvr talk to ppl on the phone for like 1 hour plus haha wow im zai like a pro whooo~
Check out my masterpiece(s)!! :D

Just woke up, gonna chiong hw and study for geog test before ballet~ kinda tempted to buy a few new caps to deco agn, hmm.... But lazy to walk to IMM gahhhh haiyo! And look what happened to my poor darling haha..

R.I.P EARPHONES

Dropped my earphones and i din even realize it till now.. So sad and devastated :((((
Dear earphones, nothing seems right without you anymore. I din mean to lose you, and now i feel empty without you.. Sorry :(((

Haiz damn sad now, somemore i checked on the apple website and it says the price is $48! No money :(( why so ex omgg T^T wallowing in despair now haiz!

Wonder why things turned out this way when i thought it might be a good idea to have a change in environment.. I guess things do change with time, and it's kinda frustrating how relationships between ppl can be so fragile.

Ok, not gonna dwell on that cuz im gonna chiong all my hw (try la hor!) today wahahaha~ such a good girl oh yeah.

Changed tablemate today cuz apparently somebody seemed to be talking to much in class LOL not my fault ok i only talk to myself. Kinda sad cuz he's a nice tablemate haha.. Hope this new one will be fun oso cuz i dun rly talk to him much before >< Anw i think im rly guai1 today, so early go home sia! -pats my own head- hope i wont die tmr and the day after cuz thurs and fris are like mega hiong for me >~<

He said, She said

And I said, "I'm already used to it."

That was what I've been telling myself for many years, and thoughts that have been surpressed deep beneath somewhere resurfaced again today. Always the one putting up a strong front, always putting on a smile at the most awkward situations. Ha. That's life I guess.

But when I see others struggling like what I've been through, I feel kinda relieved, because I think I won't have to go through all that a second time. Those were all in the past.

So I guess I'll just end off with this quote:
"No matter how stained your past is, your future is still spotless."
No point in whining over the past; we should all smile to the future(:

Feeling a little down now cuz I just realised you've found someone else to talk to cuz I didn't have time to chat.. Guess it's good for u bah, and u do seem to be having fun.. Oh well.
Nevermind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I'll remember you say:
"sometimes it lasts in love
but sometimes it hurts instead"

Not that I was in love, but it was a great friendship I had, and it's kinda sad that it doesn't seem to be able to hold as long as I thought it would..

Re-Awakening

Ok, guess I'm back after a long "vacation" from blogging~A little lag I know, but IT'S A BRAND NEW YEAR! WOOHOO!
Things have changed a lot, but I guess I'm still me. Just a little more crazy. And a little more willing to let go.

Sometimes I feel that my life is like coffee. Aromatic and sweet enough to hide the tiniest tint of bitter beneath. This year has been a great start so far, and I really hope it lasts. Starting to feel some sense of belonging somewhere, but sometimes it's just not enough. I'm like a lost puppy, following whoever I think can guide me home, but after a huge roundabout, I'm back at the starting point. It boils down to me I guess, I just don't fit in, or I just don't try hard enough.

It's a joke that organisms that have only lived for a decade or so are feeling helpless with their lives. Why do we think so much into things? We could have been much more easily contented if we could live life as it is and be thankful for what we have. I think the key point is just to be positive. A part of my life used to be all depressed and stuff, and that was the worse thing I could ever have been through. Your head is filled with all the bad stuff that no good stuff can get through. Optimism is really what you need to brighten up your life.

Dwelling on too much unhappy thoughts can become a bad habit that's hard to kick out. It's like when someone cries for the first time and your heart goes out to them. You sympathise them the second time. You comfort them again the third time. But subsequently, the tears become worthless, because you see them all the time.

Gosh, I think I'm really long-winded. Hmm. Shall go listen to all the recent new songs~