Sixdollars outing screwed up today, only fourdollars :( went vian's hse to "study", and i only managed to do 3questions for maths revision ex! LOL. Watched horror movie oso keke and started chatting abt pri sch stuff. Cuz my mum left her phone at home, she asked me to bring it along with me in case thr are impt msg/calls. So i changed her wallpaper.... Muahahahahaha....

Conducted dry run for our camp in sch today, woah it's really tiring~ not to mention getting waterfall-ed at one station when i was blindfolded and had to go through an obstacle course.. Wah my game lai de leh, and i ended up getting bullied WHAT IS THIS haha.. Almost drowned, and when i came out it was like stepping out of a fishtank >( But it was kinda fun luh, if everyone enjoyed themselves then i guess it's worth carrying the hall benches all the way from the hall to the design court~ oh man i swear it's so damn heavy, everything felt like feather to me after that LOL
Sometimes it's just great to go crazy with good friends(: but i think my zihigh stamina really dropped like siao. Wahh cui now, but then thr's SIXDOLLARS outing tmr!! My pri sch clique muahahaha~

Ok actl today kinda like wet run and not dry run, cuz we had waterguns and waterbombzzz~

Went studio today, ended up slacking in store room keke. After that went shopping with huien, bought this case that i totally regret omg feel so scammed D: spent damn a lot buying so many stuff ><
later met my bro lol, den he bought me a speaker as belated bday present. Went lib with huien after that, and when i met my bro agn he actl went jcube to get me a cartoon thumbdrive.. omg kinda touched sia, even though it's not very pretty and it's hard to use. Haiz so sweet~ thanks dude ^-^

Aww man feel like puking after cca today, so giddy from all the spinning and high-ing D: but tmr going shopping wif huien at jp kekeke eggcited!! ^^

Ok, so the trip wasn't that bad~ it's easily the best OELP trip ever hahaha :p made lots of new friends, and i srsly wanna stay thr and not come back hehe. Made a pact with huien that we will visit Korea tgt after A levels! Anyone wanna tag along? Keke.
I guess i'm much better now, since i can talk and try to get a bit high hha~ going for art outing now! Gonna relax a bit before it starts to get busy during the hol(:

Totally not feeling well sia, dun feel like going on the trip :( i think i'm gonna hv a fever or sth, i just feel so damned tired.

I think i've really been thinking a lot these few days. One major thing i found out abt myself during the camp was that i simply lacked love. I didn't learn to love my participants and care for them like how it should be, instead i strive to get things done and missed out the importance of the process. I guess that kinda links to how i'm not showing love for my bro. It's just hard for me to show that i truly care, and i think that's whr i fail. So until i learn to love, i noe i'll never be a good facil. I'll never be a real person.

Having post-camp syndrome sia, bad sore throat, screwed voice box, major fatigue and total muddle-headedness :/ and i feel so demoralised with low confidence in myself because of this camp, like i didn't do a good job for my grp. Plus i made my family worried for my health cuz i pushed myself to far out of my limits. Feel so emo these few days :( ppl around me are trying hard to encourage me, but i'm just so deeply buried in despair that it's hard to snap out of it :(
Flying to korea this sat, don't feel excited at all sia. It's like just 3 days away and i haven even started packing. Haiz, hope the trip can bring the old me back.

Haiyo this week is passing so slowly gahh. Not celebrating bday this yr cuz i'll be mugging for chem and maths, which is kinda ok cuz there's nth much to celebrate for anw heheh xD
Kinda anticipating but a bit scared for facil camp this fri! Hopefully things will run smoothly and the weather is nice. Haha having fun making pic collages on the ipad, it's just that cool keke.
Busy busy month sia! And the best of it is the end of the month! Woohoo! Eggciteddddddddddd :D

Today was a long day, had econs test after school at 415. PE was like super slack, we spent the hour at gym looking at mr tan demo how to use equipment and showing off his muscles haha he so cute LOL scam us have to redo 2.4 cuz system crashed, i rly sia dao ley! :P
Sian it's almost 11 le, i still haven finish memorizing geog.. Tmr first period sia, damn scared! Must. Persevere. Jia. You. Min. Nee. Go. Go. Go.

28 April

In Malaysia now, finally a break from this hectic week. Played bball during sports day ytd and we got 3rd! Kinda disappointed, but we had fun(: having conflicting emotions these few days, haiyo :x

Went for facil training this morn before coming back, it felt really good to be with all the other facils again(: can feel the excitement alr, really hope things will go well for the actual camp! ^-^

Kinda relieved today is over! No more tests for the rest of this week le, finally can relax a bit haha~ but i think my geog die liao, nvr listen in class AT ALL. Taiwan buddies came today, they quite ok la haha~ my buddy damn cool, love his accent haha~ i wanna have that cool cool accent oso! But he stayed in Canada for like 7 years or sth so kinda impossible lolol~
Making cards for them now, haiyo so tired but no choice :(

Got replacement for my phone and GC le, why do i have this feeling that my stuff all gt prob de :/ ok shall stop blogging for the day liao, so tired ><

Ran 2.4 today, personal best 13.02! :D But I srsly felt like dying after the run, felt like puking LOL And guess what? I SURVIVED THE DAY WITHOUT MY PHONE!! :DD Haha lock button spoiled le, my dad had to bring it for replacement~ And he came back replacing 3 phones at one go LOL imba haha. Waiting for him to come back with my chio new phone, but he went out for dinner with my mum and friends le, most prob will take ages before I reunite with my phone again hur hur.
Kinda nervous about scs test tmr sia, shud start revising now le. Minnee, you've had enough fun le, now go study. Yes Princess.

Woke up at 5.30am to play basketball with huien today, den we reached sch at like 6.30am and started running while chatting~ jogged on the 5th lane for 7 rounds without stopping sia, omg proud of myself :)

Omg look at the time now, it's 1:11am!! Siao, i'm still awake, just finished scs phew. Time to sleep FINALLY :D love my bed at times like this <3

Somehow, everyone is a prisoner to their own mind and heart. In a way, i guess I don't have to feel bad anymore.

I guess sometimes it's hard not to forgive him. Haiz. No matter how lousy his attitude is, how noob his dance is, i still love him. Loads.

Blogging on my way home from tuition, sho tired D: whole body aching sia, ytd napfa so hiong :( i did like, 3 inclined pull ups and i couldn't even lift my arms this morn. How awesome is that. Urgh don't laugh can?
Wushu was just... Ok im not gonna say anything. Dun rly feel embarrassed la, just find the whole thing kinda funny, maybe cuz our class is an ok-going class haha xD
Cca was fun the first hour or so cuz we celebrated sulao's bday, but after that time passed really slowwwwwwwly. Maybe it was just me bah, rly tired and aching all over :/
Going art science museum with the class tmr! Kinda excited, but im kinda scared i cant wake up on time @.@ cant even keep my eyes open now. Urgh.

Having stomachache at night for 2 days liao, what's wrong wif me :'(

It's been sometime since i listened to music for so long haha, cuz my earphones all spoil liao, den the one im using now has really lousyyyyyy sound quality D: gahh, gotta get new ones soon.

Played with my calendar in school today, trying to mark dates with holidays and i realised April's a really boring month. The only holiday has passed and the rest of the month is like a minefield with tests popping out here and there. Haiyo.

Anw today i practically slacked my time away watching drama and listening to music. Shall go listen to more music as i try to fall asleep. Byeeee~

I have put up an invisible wall between us just so i won't screw ur worthless head off. It's war. Cold war. Grr.

Sometimes i wonder why i try so hard for an ass who doesnt know how much i care? Srsly, i'm on the verge of giving up now, cuz i despise ppl with no resolution, no respect and no brains. I'm clueless of what to do with him now, soft and hard approaches don't work at all. I've had enough of his disrespect, his indifference, his fked up attitude and his fking tantrums. So i think i shud just give up and let him 自生自灭. So much for trying to be a better sister. He's hopeless.

Totally killed my mood to study. Can't study when u have ppl coming in and out of the room every few min trying to get that guy to just do his homework. But no, cuz he is determined to stay firm and not do his work by sleeping, listening to music and playing with that damned game. He just wants to go to school without any hw to submit so he can get into more trouble. Well done. Now that i just blew my top off, i really need some therapy for my throat.

I've srsly had enough. I give up.

OMFG TUITION WAS FREAKING FUN TODAY, i laugh until i feel like i just did a lottttt of abs training. Mr Garden is da bombz man. Hah.

Wah had a horrible time looking at my bro do barre work man, finally understand how the chers feel liao. Haha no la kidding~ i just have high expectations for him.

Gonna start mugging for the tests on thurs liao, but idk how :/ tmr gt cca sia, guess i can only mug maths during maths and revise for langarts when i eat or take bus or bake choco cake. Haiyo. Oh well, jiayous to da jia kay! :)

One should never say those three words so easily because if you do, it'll sound no more than ordinary to her one day;

That's from a my point of view btw, because hearing those three words seem to be a confirmation of one's 'love'. True love doesn't mean saying a hundred times I Love You, it means saying it once and really mean it.

Bow to mother bow to father and bow to each other. Somebody's finally not forever alone WHOOOO haiyo but a bit sudden ah winks winks. But gt shock dao la, it's been a while since anything interesting happened y'know.
Had a relatively boring day today in school, the only april fool joke i received was a '敏倪你很美', and a practically dao-ed the guy cuz it's such a lameeeeeeeee prank, if ppl even fall for it. I swear i had to keep myself from rolling my eyes. Haha but nice try la, at least i gt happy a bit from pretending it was a real compliment haha.
And the highlight of the day was really from the stairs.. Sorry to the two poor guys we happened to prank cuz we just felt like it haha. Life's too boring that it sucks. Sometimes. But yea the 2nd time was one hell of a laughing business. Maybe we should have made do with shoelaces instead hmm. Maybe we'll try that nxt year.
And i'm totally addicted to books now, reading hunger games and fallen at the same time. Until i found out that EOM is due tmr. Major sianz. Haiyo. Gotta chiong chiong chiong. Just realised this is a really mega long post. If u can still stay sane when u've read all the way here, (Y). Erm i dun mean the crazygal96 ANG YAN **** okayz. Plox haha.
Kay better shoo from blogging le, or else tmr will die an ugly death. Haiyo somebody tweet until im gonna puke shit any moment liao haha, eeyer so mushy.
K la k la minnee stop nagging, im done soon la. Finishing touches.... DONE. Kk byeee.

Bad timing to start reading books now, but ohno im obsessed and caught up with reading now >< just bought the first installment of the hunger games saga and borrowed another 2 books from this series called Fallen by Lauren Kate, going JE lib now to borrow the first book of that series cuz Central branch doesn't have it @.@ im crazyyyyyy.

Eeks forgot to do chem wkst today and had to stand at the back of the class for the whole hour :( haiyo. But i finished all the chem hw in class right after that haha. On my way to become a mugger liao!
Playing scramble now, damn it's super addictive! But nid wait for the coins to refill everytime zzz.
A bit sad my hair gt cut short sia, hope it grows long soon heheh!

Had a relaxing day out today, but yikes, gotta go sch real early tmr morn to chiong geog. Haiz why did i leave it in school man.
Really hope we can do this right, kinda exciting haha(:

Muscles aching like siao from pe + jumping jacks during dance ><
Did cip at taman jurong cc today, went door to door to ask for recyclable materials, damn fun! Shud do more of such cips nxt time haha xD
Rly looking forward to korea oelp, i think it's awesome cuz we get to do a lot of stuff before the oelp itself, like going for a talk abt k-wave this coming tues (ponning lessons from 11am till 230pm xD) and having a korean buddy the following week :D
Oh and the Thailand buddies were awesome!! Haha my class gt 2 guys come and they were totally fun ttm xD brought them to cca on fri, haha so sad can't continue talking to them while dancing~ learnt a lot of Thai, and ofc when u start learning a language u learn from all the profanities first right? Hint hint hahaha xD talking to them was rly fun! Hope our korean buddies will be as fun too, my class total gt 6 of them coming! Cool siol~ heehee xD

Can't believe that something like this is happening to me! Feels like a dream haha, but i guess we're just lucky xD although it's not what we thought it was, I think it's still great exposure and it provides us with more opportunities (: haiz lucky us (:

Haha i gave up updating my blog halfway through the trip, so there's only up till day 5 xD psps hehehehh.
So we didn't get into top 3... But i guess it's alright bah.. My fren was right, it doesn't matter even if we dun win, heck the win and lose haha.. I guess i was too focused on the prize that i've forgotten abt the joy in performing~ heck the prize, i'm going korea anyway~ and we still ended up with bottles of ginseng drink! Haha nourishment for us~ oh well it was a good experience anw~ shall try harder nxt time. Whoopee! :D
First day of sch was kinda tiring, but i guess i can still cope bah haha. Hwaiting everybodeh! :D

Say cheese! xD

Raining heavily at Dalawan now, and my sore throat is killing me >< NTS: must drink more water!!!
Haiyo weather veh cold sia..

Day 5

Last day at Ming Dao today, it was kinda sad to leave my buddy, but this time we have fb to keep in touch and she's gonna come sg in july! :D
went to a "childcare centre" for mentally/physically disabled kids for cip, omg kinda sad, but we really pei4 fu2 ther parents for being so strong in a sense that they didn't give up on their kids and love them the same. It was a great experience interacting with them, and i really wish them all the best in their journey to grow up and become stronger individuals.
At Dalawan now, we watched some clips in open air and had a karaoke session, omg haha awkward duet with junming lolol. Damn cold la, i was shivering like siao while singing and ended up wearing 2 jackets, fully zipped up haha.. Mountain area mah, abt 12 degrees C >< but not bad sia, wifi here quite strong heehee(:
Looking forward to tmr, lots of activities, hope the cip goes smoothly!! :D HWAITINGGGG!

7:22am
Had lessons ytd at ming dao, which was kinda cool! Physics in chinese haha, can u imagine? 摩擦力~~
Went to the glass gallery oso, there were lots of very intricate and fine works displayed that were made of glass~
going Dalawan today for like 2 or 3 days i think, dk gt wifi anot cuz it's more of like the tribal area.. Whee eggcited!! :D

Day 3

Visited Ming Dao High School today, and we had lots of fun with our buddies! They were all very friendly, and the teachers n students thr are very welcoming. Den we went to do cip at a community centre, omg i was so nervous cuz i had to lead and teach the line dance.. And it turned out that we've underestimated them! Those old ah ma sure can dance haha, their line dance was so much more harder and cooler than ours lolol xD but we had fun haha!
After that we went to the wind power plant, wah the wind was so strong i was shivering like siao! But we learnt a lot on generating power through those enormous windmills and i think it was very meaningful.
Went Lugang old street oso, the place was ancient with lots of alleys and old old old houses. The tour guide brought us around and we walk through what seemed like an endless number of alleys haha~
Ok very late le, gotta sleep! Tmr gonna hv maths lesson with my buddy woots. Keke hwaiting! :D

Day 2

5/3/12
Checked out of the hotel and headed for Tsing Hua Uni, their campus is HOLY MOLY HUGE! Then we went to the night market, wah damn a lot of food xD
Nice new hotel! Luuuuuuuuuv it here in Taiwan <3

Taiwan Day 1 & 2

4/3/12 3:49pm
Arrived at Taiwan, just boarded the bus! It's kinda cold, 16 degrees C. Kinda misty outside, but it's cool, we're finally here! (: shall post this when i get wifi later(:

5/3/12
Finally gt wifi to post, seems like thr's only wifi in common areas like dining hall and lobby haha~ checking out of this hotel today, then we're going Qing Hua Uni~ it's cold here but i like it!! (:

And look at how they welcome our sch haha xD

Went shopping wif shuyi shiyi and xinyi today, bought lots of stuff!! Hehehehe xD

Packed a little, slacked a little and packed a little agn, i think i shud be almost done packing~ damn tired now, gonna sleep soon so i can wake up early tmr! Hope this trip will be a fun and memorable one(:

Best day of the week :)

Had a crazy day today with my pri sch clique, SIX DOLLARS!!! Haha plus my bro, so $6.50 le LOL. Spent a great day eating buffet at the alumni gathering, taking part in the lucky draw (our table damn lucky haha 4 of us got ntuc vouchers!), going SCAPE, playing games, zilian-ing everywhere, eating fries, shopping and omg cant list everything, but today was holy moly awesomeeeeeee :D it's great that we still keep in touch~ today is definitely a day to rmb(:

Haha we srsly zilian everywhere, raining must zilian under umbrella, on the bus must zilian from orchard back to jurong (Y) xDDDDDDD

And played card games oso, wah i suck at cheat sia >< i either think super long when i wanna cheat or i just totally say the number on the card when im supposed to be cheating GOSH HAHA xD joke max sia.. Den wink murder i oso damn fail, can't wink LOLOLOL haha so fun siol~

But it's time to get back to reality... So... Time to sleep cuz thr's sch tmr :/

Today was crazily awesomez! The most epic things happen when u get somebody hu doesn't look like u to help u get ur ezlink card haha.. And me n yan had the shock of our lives when the mrt announced pioneer station when we were at lakeside, den dk why only the both of us reaction so big haha, so omg!

The little things in life that gives me reason to hold on and persevere(:

Ran outside the sch for PE ytd, mega fun sia! So cool when ppl stare at a bunch of ppl running tgt and crossing traffic junctions~ Cher let us play at the playground after hiong running and sprinting, omg we all found our inner-child agn HAHA. Lot's of epic moments, rly had a lot of fun! :D
Finding more and more bruises after hiphop now, me ish practising hard! Looking forward to March oh yeah :D

Omg not sleeping agn, gt this cockroach in my room!!! Wth like my room so much -.- Kinda funny, me, my mum and my grandmother all armed with a roll of newspaper waiting for it to come out and we whack at everything haha. Shucks, now it disappeared... Gonna sleep with door open and lights on, hopefully the insect repellent thing works. Damn i hate cockroaches..

Tireddd :/

Feeling tired alr when i had a 4 hour nap just now, why so liddat! :( but i feel like a good girl haha, finally tidied my messy bag and did all my hw :D this just shows that I can do it if I wanna set my mind on it~ tmr's challenge: clear my table.

haha me and my tablemates are so lame, we bet on the weather all the time LOL. Like whether it will start raining, and whether it will stop if it's alr raining. We are a bunch of bored ppl haha..

11:11, i just wanna listen to music and drift to sleep(:

Just woke up from my nap! A break from this crazy week haha omg tmr gonna be hiong le~ shall chiong hw now, fighting! ~

Been slacking since i reached home from cca, oh my gawd slackermin96 haha. Dunno how to deal with my bro, guess i've been too harsh on him till he's so rebellious and disrespectful. I think i'm a failure.

Dk why, feel like cutting my hair short haha. If it weren't for dance, maybe i'll cut it till shoulder-length~ maybe i'll feel less weight weighing my head down haha..

Omg am i abnormal for a girl?? Normal girls have crushes all the time right, no?? Haiyo.
Just upgraded my freeze today haha, can hold in the position without supporting my knee with elbow le whoopee! :D
Yes, me and my bro are in the same sch, but how the hell will i noe exactly what he did in sch and whr he went?! Aiyo can think properly anot? U ask me i ask hu? :/
Mentally drained today, hope maths will be ok tmr! ><

Dancing so much has guided me in finding a balance in life. Haha but i better not over do it or i'll have split personality soon!! It's like one moment i'm "IN YOUR FACE" at hiphop, then the next moment i'm "graceful and demure" at ballet. Haha. Still, it's a good thing to be exposed to many dance styles^^ dancing is really my life, can't imagine life without passion~

Wore the wrong shoe when i got out today and ended up with a blister on each heel right before ballet! Went on pointe with blisters, not cool at all.. Ballerinas can't show that they're in pain, it's basic performance quality.. So... Screaming and ouch-ing inside, but smiling and looking relaxed outside. Haha..

2 more weeks to Taiwan! And i know i'll nvr start packing till the day before i fly. Whoops xD

My darling has a new friend today! ^^ thx for the belated present! :D

Another week gone~ time passes by so quickly nowadays! One thing that i enjoy is going tuition after cca wif my bro in our "cpl" tee haha. Even though we still quarrel, we kinda bonded a lot since this yr, cuz same sch mah(:

Haiz but when will he ever grow up la, so immature! Zzz.

Sometimes we just don't appreciate what we have until we don't have them anymore. Why are human beings like this? And it all boils down to making the right choice and decisions, like econs(: we have to measure the costs and benefits of every decision we make. Haha, hope I'll be ok for the test tmr^^ woots, just reached home!

Ended tuition late today! Tired, hungry and loads of hw undone :/ so cui now sia! Tmr cca another hiong day, haiyo!

So many things to do, so little time! ><

Today was awesome haha, except when i fell asleep during chem oops >< just found out it can be super fun sitting with a bunch of guys haha! Like finding jokes online during phy and sharing them, wah laugh dao siao~ ofc the zai me said we were discussing phy and came up wif a profound qn haha, den cher explained a whole chunk of stuff~ rly enjoying myself more in class now^^

Haiyo today nvr get to take a nap! Sho tired aw man.

Went to facilitate 1A for their CHAMPS period today, wahh totally nervous dao siao! Heng gt zhixing help, but still.. we were two clueless ppl hu had no idea what was going on but had to help out cuz the facil in-charge was absent. Heng it was kinda ok, except for debrief part when i was trying to chiong finish quickly cuz time overshot liao. Ahhh nervous nervous, kept stuttering like an idiot >< but main point was they had fun(: and i missed lessons(: heehee(:

Had some takeaways la ofc^^ thr's always a reason for a person's actions, so we must try to understand them before diving into a conflict. Only through this can thr be social harmony and peace(:

Gotta try chiong finish hw today sia, thurs and fri damn hiong so no time>< haiyo why so liddat derh.

Happygirl96 (:

Today was kinda.. Idk how to describe haha... Mixed feelings la. First time receive so many gifts, so it's a special Vday indeed. I nvr expected that haha, me ish a happy girl today(: and it's the first year im spending Vday wif my bro in sch haha, really different! Thanks everyone for everything, yall have made my day today :D
Anw im really shagged and cui now, was falling asleep during cca oops x) and i had tuition afterwards somemore, so now my eyes are like struggling to stay open heh. Kay shall sleep now, hope to have a good dream! Nights world! ^^

Omg so late alr.. Finally done with V.day stuff, but i din touch my PI at all omgg shall wake up a lil earlier to chiong heheh.
Siao, so long nvr talk to ppl on the phone for like 1 hour plus haha wow im zai like a pro whooo~
Check out my masterpiece(s)!! :D

Just woke up, gonna chiong hw and study for geog test before ballet~ kinda tempted to buy a few new caps to deco agn, hmm.... But lazy to walk to IMM gahhhh haiyo! And look what happened to my poor darling haha..

R.I.P EARPHONES

Dropped my earphones and i din even realize it till now.. So sad and devastated :((((
Dear earphones, nothing seems right without you anymore. I din mean to lose you, and now i feel empty without you.. Sorry :(((

Haiz damn sad now, somemore i checked on the apple website and it says the price is $48! No money :(( why so ex omgg T^T wallowing in despair now haiz!

Wonder why things turned out this way when i thought it might be a good idea to have a change in environment.. I guess things do change with time, and it's kinda frustrating how relationships between ppl can be so fragile.

Ok, not gonna dwell on that cuz im gonna chiong all my hw (try la hor!) today wahahaha~ such a good girl oh yeah.

Changed tablemate today cuz apparently somebody seemed to be talking to much in class LOL not my fault ok i only talk to myself. Kinda sad cuz he's a nice tablemate haha.. Hope this new one will be fun oso cuz i dun rly talk to him much before >< Anw i think im rly guai1 today, so early go home sia! -pats my own head- hope i wont die tmr and the day after cuz thurs and fris are like mega hiong for me >~<

He said, She said

And I said, "I'm already used to it."

That was what I've been telling myself for many years, and thoughts that have been surpressed deep beneath somewhere resurfaced again today. Always the one putting up a strong front, always putting on a smile at the most awkward situations. Ha. That's life I guess.

But when I see others struggling like what I've been through, I feel kinda relieved, because I think I won't have to go through all that a second time. Those were all in the past.

So I guess I'll just end off with this quote:
"No matter how stained your past is, your future is still spotless."
No point in whining over the past; we should all smile to the future(:

Feeling a little down now cuz I just realised you've found someone else to talk to cuz I didn't have time to chat.. Guess it's good for u bah, and u do seem to be having fun.. Oh well.
Nevermind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I'll remember you say:
"sometimes it lasts in love
but sometimes it hurts instead"

Not that I was in love, but it was a great friendship I had, and it's kinda sad that it doesn't seem to be able to hold as long as I thought it would..

Re-Awakening

Ok, guess I'm back after a long "vacation" from blogging~A little lag I know, but IT'S A BRAND NEW YEAR! WOOHOO!
Things have changed a lot, but I guess I'm still me. Just a little more crazy. And a little more willing to let go.

Sometimes I feel that my life is like coffee. Aromatic and sweet enough to hide the tiniest tint of bitter beneath. This year has been a great start so far, and I really hope it lasts. Starting to feel some sense of belonging somewhere, but sometimes it's just not enough. I'm like a lost puppy, following whoever I think can guide me home, but after a huge roundabout, I'm back at the starting point. It boils down to me I guess, I just don't fit in, or I just don't try hard enough.

It's a joke that organisms that have only lived for a decade or so are feeling helpless with their lives. Why do we think so much into things? We could have been much more easily contented if we could live life as it is and be thankful for what we have. I think the key point is just to be positive. A part of my life used to be all depressed and stuff, and that was the worse thing I could ever have been through. Your head is filled with all the bad stuff that no good stuff can get through. Optimism is really what you need to brighten up your life.

Dwelling on too much unhappy thoughts can become a bad habit that's hard to kick out. It's like when someone cries for the first time and your heart goes out to them. You sympathise them the second time. You comfort them again the third time. But subsequently, the tears become worthless, because you see them all the time.

Gosh, I think I'm really long-winded. Hmm. Shall go listen to all the recent new songs~