Motivation;

A while ago I saw a post on RV Confessions that this dancer from RVDS felt sad because her mum didn't say much after the SYF appreciation showcase. To be honest, I wasn't really looking forward to the showcase at first because my whole family was to go back to Malaysia for the elections. The teachers kept emphasizing that it was a performance for our parents and it was a chance for us to show our appreciation towards them, but without my family watching me, what is the showcase to me? It was a question ever since I couldn't get tickets for my family for my ballet performance too. What am I dancing for?

 

It started when my mum let me attend dance classes as a kid because she wanted me to have a good body posture. I continued dancing in school, joining dance cca in primary school and eventually RVDS in RV now. It came naturally that dance was all I can do, so that's why I dance. Like it's just a part of me. But recently I've been thinking why. What is the motivation for me to dance? It's not easy like what most people think. Many people think that performing arts is easy because we stay indoors most of the time and we enjoy having air-con. But in fact, we train hard too, just like any other cca.

 

I realise that I want to dance for the family and friends around me. Someone told me that it doesn't matter if nobody is there to watch my performance, I should just enjoy myself. But I just feel that the feeling would be different. I don't want to be merely dancing for myself. I want to dance for a purpose. To perform for the people I love. I actually felt hurt that my mum didn't seem too affected like she would in the past when I told her there were no more tickets to my ballet performance, or when she said she couldn't make it for the showcase. Perhaps she feels that there would be lots of opportunities, since both me and my brother are in dance. But like what sulaoshi said, we should treasure every opportunity we get to perform for our family. Just kinda down that my mum doesn't seem feel that way..

 

But anyway, like what I commented on that post, I think even though it wasn't said out loud, it doesn't mean that her mum didn't feel proud of her. Some parents just don't express themselves in that way. I was really happy that my grandmother came to support cuz she stayed in SG to look after us. Who knows when she will ever get another chance to look at her grandchildren perform for her...

I hope this post doesn't sound too choppy cuz I was working on it while on-the-move haha. Like typing a few sentences while I can when I'm on the MRT and stuff. And I'm supposed to be doing my physics project now but the stuff all still loading so I remembered to come and post this! Shall go back to work on my project now, gonna be a long night ahead.. Byebye!!

 

Xoxo,
Minnee ♥

 

 

P.S. Today Huien and I went for a dance recital audition hahaha. We forgot our steps when we had to stand in front lolol but it was really fun! Like I was really enjoying the dance and music cuz it was really cute, but I think enjoy too much until forget steps le haha xP Results will be out tomorrow evening! It's ok if I don't get in haha, will treat it as a good experience! :)

Sorry ahh no photos today! Too lazy le hahaha.

 

 



 

Ok fine can't help it. Here's us with grandma <3

Okayy la really bye le worr! ^-^